Yippie, I slept til 11!!!

I am about fed up with the 'fast', which I consider more like a sinister Sufi diet.
Fasting means not eating, and there's plenty of sinister Sufi soup in this fast.
Typical dad: all preparation and ... no fun.
Like when we used to go camping.
He would load up the car with stuff. Tents, bags, cooking utensils.
Then rent a motel room!

Still tho.. The 'fast' keeps the peace between us.
That's worth any bit of discomfort...
For a while.

I should procure to find my child-bride in the next few years.
It is the only way that I can vanquish this spectre of 'pedophilia'
that hangs around my shoulders like a heavy iron chain.

How can I convince a reluctant human race that it's okay to love young uns?
Marrying one comes to mind.
Mohamed did it and it worked for him, right?

Keyword: love.

Fucking keyword! I can't even make dad comp to the fact that the only woman he has really 'loved' is Sasha. To me is as obvious as his bad temper. To him, it is a great secret, a kind of taboo subject that sends him into painful places.

Obviously, it has to do with his mother. His 'conquest' of 1,000 women had all to do with vengeance on his mother.

He is not alone in this, wot?

But grandma is dead, and the healing must take place in with the whole family if it's to work at all. You can't heal just one part of your body, you must heal your entire body.

Just as Katia is key to this whole puzzle, so is Sasha and oddly enough, Weixing and the rest.

Lets go back to dad's original 'global family' dreams... Lets look really what that means. I have no doubt that Alister Crowley was part-influence of this. Why? Because it makes sense. The whole 'Leary' gang was deeply influenced by the same writers. Dad is a product of that counter-culture.

His finishing touches, courtesy of one Alex Salkind and Berta Dominguez DD. He is very reluctant to see Tia Berta's 'good' side, because she was the only real witch he ever really met. The reality of Berta was too much for his basically 'gringo' mind. He could see her working behind the veil, doing what she did best: consuming human beings utterly. He is disgusted by it because he does not understand it as profoundly as I do.

And yet, he continues in the path to imitate the work.

Alex would have never existed without Berta. This is the part he does not understand. So he copies Alex, disregarding the most important element of his magic: his witchy wife.

Towards the end, I finally understood Tia Berta and I began to deeply and profoundly love her for what she was. Her spirit ... Can be very helpful.

Understanding Berta is understanding my Mom. Blanca never came close to having the profound impact on mom that Berta did.

If you are unable to love Berta... You will very certainly be unable to love my mom, right dad? Your lack of love for Berta comes from a deep ignorance of her nature. Berta had a Nahua name, Xochiquetzal. She was a Princess. And even as a whiter-than-white would-be European, she represented the spirit of rebellion against all those values that Spain brought to Mexico. This is why she consumed Europeans with such abandon: because it was her duty as a Mexican.